Indecision

It's so cliche to feel a warm breeze
On a rainy day
Looking to the sky
Eyes, filled with grey
Time to live through another...
With hands shaking
And legs stiff
Finally, I feel alive
I'll let my words go, falling up
And let my voice fly too
Finally, I am alive
Easily forgotten,
I lost myself
Became someone else, temporary
Insanity
Not even I, could see the signs
Passing slowly by
Warnings from above and below
On every side
Left behind in a crowd of strangers I've known for years
Not even they could...
Still, the sun will shine
Through pouring rain
Open your eyes, invite the pain of healing
Eyes filled with grey and
I'll look to the sky
Suddenly I feel alive again
With curtains drawn closed
Vines grabbing hold
I lay in silence
Walls crumble into earth
Inviting trees
And nature finds me
Not. A. Thought. To. Be. Heard.
Not much left to recognize
And on my knees, I beg
I can remember how to stand
I remembered the first time
Now release me from your grip
But don't tell a soul
It's too hard to admit
That I was here
That I was real and was promised everything
Deny, deny, deny me of myself
The sun can shine through
Pouring rain will continue
And eyes to the sky, I invite pain
Filled with grey I feel the healing
And I won't forget again
Temporary
Insanity
I'm alive
Repetition- saves your soul
Don't let your fear of disappointment
Keep you from the sky
Though it pains to believe wholeheartedly
It kills more to love with half your heart