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With a clear mind and a soft voice
I'll recall the words I never thought I'd say at all
There was something about the way
You'd take my hand
Almost felt like I was praying never to let go
I remember nights I would scream
At the height of my lungs
& cry your name & pray again
You would appear before me
Then everything would be okay
The way I would close my eyes
& pretend your lips are what found mine
The only thing to find them
Was the salt from my eyes
But you found me then
Not even I knew I was lost
You brought me to a place where
I could stand before a mirror and face myself
I know I can be harsh
& sometimes cruel
But so can you
We've always balanced each other out that way
Now I know it was unfair
To claim to you, of all people
You didn't care enough
Now I see-
You cared too much
Insecurities will eat you alive
Just another thing for you
Keep in mind
Don't mind if I address you directly
I loved the way said
You'd always miss and love me
So, here I wait
Always in pieces
Most of which I'll never get back
But I'm at peace with you
Hopefully, I believe, you're at peace with me
I'll admit, I just wanted you
To try a little harder
Well, closing the pages for now
I recall-
Everything I never thought I'd say at all
I have loved
More than the sun
And moon
Is to Love
I still do
What does that mean to you?