Civil War

I fear as though I hold no place here anymore
I am here in my room but not home
I am sleeping but not yet comfortable
I am not alone, and yet there is silence
I don't know what's changed
Maybe it was me
So I try and I question and then listen
I change
Still, I am here in this kitchen..
But not home
It cannot still be me
Maybe it is you
So we talk and we work and I listen
And I bite my tongue this time
But wait, my tongue is held by none,
Though I am still silent
I simply have nothing to say
I am not alone, and yet there is silence
So we talk and we work and I listen, again
But you aren't even here
So I listen to this silence
As I pack my heart somewhere among the boxes
I will miss you
Was I longing for you or my heart, my trust,
I am not sure
Either way,
I am not alone, and yet there is still silence