Shed & Grow

Staring through this window
Fingers pressed against the glass
We are separate
Fog hides your face from mine
Keep your secrets
I'll keep quiet
Omission is betrayal &
Though one day you can be forgiven
Your unloyalties will not be forgotten
True, I am but a pawn
My pieces were laid out before you
An offering
You accept but choose to misuse me
Ever adoring,
I implored your imperfections
As it begins to rain,
Ice blankets the window
The room is warm
Your eyes send frost up my spine
I let my eyelids rest,
Breaking your gaze
As it begins to pour,
I can no longer see the light from which you came
True, darkness surrounds me for now
But soon the sun will revive,
Only this time, the light will be my own.

Predator or Prey

What did I do?
I haven't slept yet
I can't lay my head down
For fear that I won't wake up
Unclean powder stains my skin
I can feel dirt & disappointment
Settling in when I tell you
That I can't shower
Because I'm afraid I'll drown
When the water comes pouring down
Maybe I could get sick
To feel better, I just want
To feel better
Here I lay, wasting away
Within myself
You draw me a bath & say
Everything will be okay
But I can't feel my hands
& I can't see straight
I feel myself losing total control
I can't feel my body, no
& I can't stop shaking
Take my hand in yours, please
Help me feel I'm still alive
Right now I can't tell
I'm not sure I'm even breathing
I need to be revived
Cold water dripping down my spine
I start to cry
I've never felt so happy
To be alive
I can feel my hands
& I can see
Try to help carry me, please
Before the door closes
& I feel hopeless again
Hopeless, helpless, oh silly me
What have I done